caught in headlights.

hellobojangles @ 2009-09-26T01:27:00

2009-09-25T17:42:27Z

Just a few things i figured are worth mentioning.

Hate that these Australians think my name is Shin Goh. But woohoo! I am officially a graduate. Convocation here i come.

Wednesday was grandma's birthday celebration. Think most of us were secretly hoping that Grandma wouldn't breakdown cause of our loss this year. She didn't breakdown and it was altogether an enjoyable dinner, pretty awesome. I believe that having family around is never a bad thing.

Kids.

Grandkids (and other halves) plus Great-Grandkids.

Altogether now!

There was a big commotion cause Daddy wanted to stand on the chair to look taller.

HAHAHA. Fail daddy, you failed terribly.

Happy Birthday Grandmama!

hellobojangles @ 2009-09-17T22:12:00

2009-09-17T14:16:20Z

Awww, sad that i won't be seeing them anymore. I think this week's lesson was pretty hectic cause they were all more hyper than usual? We had a very angsty kid who hit another boy and god, there was blood involved. Later on, another boy cried cause his friend teased him about marrying a girl named mary and told him they'd have 3 kids together. I swear, its alot funnier if i told you in person. And later on, one group of girls kept insisting i was malay. So when i spoke her in chinese, she said, "ooohhhh, so you are a malay that studied chinese. Wah miss goh your chinese is REALLY very good." Total wtf moment.

This is my fav kid, javier. I have this crush on him. No, not in that pedophile way. But there was something about him that made him so well loved and omg he's a really funny kid. I want my kids to be like that.

hellobojangles @ 2009-09-10T21:46:00

2009-09-10T14:45:18Z

Wow, after 2 million years, i finally got down to buying a card reader. So i have pictures.

This was one of those pre-birthday dinners, cause Mum's birthday this year consisted of about 3 dinners. Not that i'm complaining cause i got to eat all that good food! We had Popeyes and totally failed on staying away from carbos cause i had to eat one of those yummy biscuits. Think Papa was pretty engrossed with talking to Jie throughout dinner about something, i can't remember what. I think its her 21st birthday celebration. Which is the next weekend i think? Yay to good food again. And also, here's evidence of Berl being the usual anti photo taking person that she is.

So my 2nd week at work is ending. I can't seem to decide whether or not i like the place. All i know is that I've never been this excited for the weekends, and its not cause i'm going out, but cause i get to stay home and do nothing. There are like 10 temp staffs in the department alone? That's mad. I don't know why they need so many of us. I'm happy cause my first pay should be coming in soon and i'm ~~pretty upset~~ outraged that Papa stopped giving me my allowance. Sad to see money depleting cause i have to feed myself. Haha. Poo to growing up i say!

hellobojangles @ 2009-09-03T21:08:00

2009-09-03T13:15:43Z

This week, the kids got to make cheese. You know the experiment where you add lemon and salt to milk, and pour it on cheese cloth.

Javier: Miss Goh?
Me: Yes?
Javier: From milk we can make cheese right?
Me: Uh huh.
Javier: Does this mean if i change to tomato juice, i can make a tomato?
Me: No, of course not. If you use tomato juice, and you get a tomato. It means if you use milk, you would get a cow.

Obviously, to a group of primary 3 boys, it was the funniest thing on earth.
Its amazing how easy it is to make kids laugh.
Can't wait to have my own kids. Seriously.
Its abit early but its true; I can't wait to have my own kids.

hellobojangles @ 2009-09-01T21:53:00

2009-09-01T14:06:13Z

Monday morning, i found myself fighting for a standing place on the 7:30 MRT towards Joo Koon. The things we do for money, or rather, the things I do for money. Hate that the office is in the CBD area. The past 2 days have been quite a breeze cause people aren't giving me things to do and as a result, i spend half the day looking out the window. The view is quite good because i'm on the 14th floor; so i'm facing the sea, overlooking Singapore Chinese Orchestra and the clouds are pretty close. Today, I witnessed the grey clouds, the drizzle and eventually the storm. Its only day 2, can't wait for October to come. I am now sure that desk job = death.

hellobojangles @ 2009-08-30T00:28:00

2009-08-29T16:34:27Z

Had a major disturbing dream last night.

To dream that you are abandoned, suggests that it is time to leave behind past feelings and characteristics that are hindering your growth. Let go of your old attitudes. A more direct and literal interpretation of this dream is that you have a fear of being deserted, abandoned, or even betrayed. It may stem from a recent loss or a fear of losing a loved one. The fear of abandonment may manifest itself into your dream as part of the healing process and dealing with losing a loved one. It may also stem from unresolved feelings or problems from childhood. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are feeling neglected or that your feelings are being overlooked. Perhaps the dream is a metaphor that you need to approach life with "reckless abandon" and live more freely.

To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.

Felt like a major drama queen in my dream. Once again, i have proven that i am emotionally unstable. Tsk.

hellobojangles @ 2009-08-26T01:01:00

2009-08-25T19:46:20Z

My initial plan was to dump all my photos into one entry, obviously, plan failed. I forgot how troublesome it was to resize the photos and to upload to both photobucket and livejournal. Furthermore, i am still suffering from the absence of photoshop. I don't understand why it is taking so long to download CS4. (Justine, remind me to pass it to you when its done downloading). But I think the main point is, i am too lazy.

So August marks the end of my school days, unless that is, I fail any modules. Shit, did i just jinx it? I should be looking for a job cause, that's the way it works. But as Nichkhun (Haha, such a K-pop fangirl) has advocated, I shall take a break, or at least i wanted to. That was until Daddy told us that we're going to Perth in December (Woohoo!) and Nik mentioned going to Bangkok when Justine gets back. All of this translates into money, which i currently don't have. Now, i need to get a part-time job. Teaching primary school kids once a week didn't help very much. There are so many things i want: an external hard drive, a new camera, new furniture, clothes, shoes etcetc. I really need to exercise some self-control.

Yesterday, it hit me that this is the time to meet up with old friends. A few weeks ago, i bumped into Victoria and realised i haven't seen her in years, probably since we left secondary school. Then i remembered that Victoria and Cheryl share the same birthday, which is the 17th of September? Then it hit me that i haven't met Cheryl either! Then i remembered that Charlotte still owes me coffee and lunch/dinner since we dropped by Pat's house. And that also meant that i haven't had a meal with Pat. God, my thoughts are all over the place. Too much Gilmore Girls.

Okay, so what i really wanted to say in this entry was..

I had Seoul Garden today cause it was 50% off for ladies and ate like a pig. But, the meat in the picture? All YenTing's fault. But it was money well spent. For the first time (in a long time), its 3:45 in the morning and I'm still full.

Photobooth Whores

2009-07-19T14:59:19Z

So i am finally part of the mac club. Excited much!

July is almost done, then in comes August.
Comes and goes pretty quick, doesn't it? Just like everything else in this world.
Emo nemo is me.

But here's to nail polish cause its the only thing that's keeping me chirpy.

hellobojangles @ 2009-06-04T23:00:00

2009-06-04T15:04:52Z

i really need to start saving for a mac.

hellobojangles @ 2009-05-27T18:30:00

2009-05-27T10:32:07Z

Today, i came home to an empty back toilet.
Because today, we had no choice but to put taime to sleep.
<3

hellobojangles @ 2009-05-21T00:04:00

2009-05-20T16:17:27Z

today, is the day i finally put up pictures.
nothing much to say but the picnic was pretty awesome, finally executed one after 130123130934 months.
happy belated birthday everyone (but grace)! haha.
last trimester guys, we can do it!

Dark

2009-03-26T17:13:14Z

I keep telling myself:
6 more months of school, just 6 months.
There is light at the end of this tunnel.

hellobojangles @ 2009-03-20T19:32:00

2009-03-20T11:46:14Z

you know, there are some days you get a terrible feeling, like something peircing through your heart.
but, you don't know the cause of it.

wallet, check.
handphone, check.
car keys & car, check.
screwed by school's IT person cause of misunderstanding, check.
sounds grumpy parents make, check.
screwed planning, check.

what else could possibly go wrong?

no longer silent.

2009-03-19T16:15:17Z

i've been neglecting this space, figured it was time to do something about it.

i wish i didn't have to go to school anymore because that mean i don't have anymore reports nor essays to do.
but then again, that means i have to go out to work and that, scares the shit out of me.
i really hope SMA calls me the moment i graduate cause that means i just might get hired or at least get to train,
instead of just wandering around in this shitty economy.

am in too deep into this whole korean phase. need to get out of it before i become too obsessed.
which reminds me of the time i was head over heel with a1, ben adams specifically.
but i am rather interested in learning the language, because i have plans post-graduation plans.
and i really want to go to korea in the winter!

so many wants that aren't really needs. where to find the money?
want an ipod, a new camera, a new room, a new laptop. everything is falling apart at the wrong time.
maybe it'd be smarter to just want money which just might fall under the category of need.
$$$$$$ gah.

need to remind myself to take more photos because, after looking at my 19th birthday album made by the girls,
i realised how easy it is too lose someone and realise that all you're left with are the memories.

1 more year to actually becoming a true adult and that means nothing else but more responsibilities.
hate the term 'growing up'.

hellobojangles @ 2009-01-06T23:29:00

2009-01-06T15:35:32Z

你好，我是吳欣仪。
今天是我的華文生日。

hellobojangles @ 2009-01-05T00:19:00

2009-01-04T16:35:00Z

before 2009 came, i had big ideas!
haha no actually there are a few things i decided to do, nothing big.

i, a. decided to do a photo log for 2009 (inspired by denise)
and b. try fish soup all around singapore (searching for the best!)

as for a. i am already 5 days behind (FAIL)

and b. for now, i name the stall opposite my grandma's place no.1
and give the stall at pasir ris central a big boo. (BOO to herbal tasting fish soup).
i imagine nik giving a nasty face.

oh oh c. find my way around singapore
and d. pimp my ride

ok school tmrw, that really sucks bye.

hellobojangles @ 2008-12-31T22:31:00

2008-12-31T15:35:27Z

an hour to 2009, i think this is where i start to talk about the past year.
but, i really don't have it in me to think back.

in general, i think in 2008, i've matured.
learned more about myself and the people around me.
figured out that people always have good intentions but sometimes don't follow through.

i am happier than i sound really

and, to avoid having 2+1 at my 21st birthday party, i hope to make more friends in 2009.

hellobojangles @ 2008-12-28T23:26:00

2008-12-28T15:39:46Z

justine, i think we need to have friendlier faces on when we take photos.
maybe that's why we're losing friends haha.

anyway, my holidays are almost over, the new timetable's up.
its time to gear up for the new trimester.
that sucks.

hellobojangles @ 2008-12-16T01:30:00

2008-12-15T17:52:48Z

My dreams are starting to get out of hand, i'm starting to get abit paranoid.

To dream of being in love suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It may suggest that you are not getting enough love in your daily life. To dream of a couple in love indicates much success for you in the future.

If you dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself that is growing and developing. It may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction or goal.

To dream that you are avoiding a person in your dream, suggest that you are not confronting some aspect of yourself. Consider what aspects and characteristics of the person you are avoiding which you are not recognizing in yourself. Alternatively, this word may also be a pun for "a void" in your life that you have been unable to fill.

To dream about your waking relationships, indicates wish-fulfillment. In your dream state, you may be able to confront issues that you would normally ignore or are afraid of bringing up. Compare your dream relationship with your waking relationship. To dream about a relationship with a stranger, represents the different sides of your personality.

To dream that you are in a restaurant, suggests that you are feeling overwhelmed by decisions/choices that you need to make in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that you are seeking for emotional nourishment outside of your social support system.

To see a certain celebrity in your dream represents your beliefs and understanding about him/her.

To dream that you are being chased indicates that are trying to avoid a situation that you think you will not be able to handle. It also represents your low confidence level.

There are more dreams that i haven't checked, but i've concluded that i'm pretty disturbed, obviously, emotionally.
Haha.

edit/
Most dreams contain messages that serve to teach us something about ourselves. Unfortunately many a times we forget what we dream about as we go about our daily routine. With recurring dreams, the message may be so important and/or powerful that it just will not go away. The frequent repetition of such dreams forces you to pay attention and confront the dream. The dream is trying desperately to tell you something. Such dreams are often nightmarish or frightening in their content, which also helps you to take notice and pay attention to them.

Recurring dreams are quite common and are often triggered by a certain life situation or a problem that keeps coming back again and again. These dreams may recur daily, once a week, or once a month, but whatever the frequency, there is little variation in the dream content itself. It usually points to a personal weakness, fear, or your inability to cope with something in your life - past or present.

The repetitive patterns in your dream can reveal some of the most valuable information on yourself. It may point to a conflict, situation or matter in your waking life that remains unresolved or unsettled. Or some urgent underlying message in your unconscious is demanding to be understood.

Ack!

hellobojangles @ 2008-12-15T02:31:00

2008-12-14T18:55:57Z

as your birthday draws nearer, i am reminded of so many things that i need to forget.

hellobojangles @ 2008-12-10T02:30:00

2008-12-09T18:37:15Z

i keep wanting to post something but i have nothing much to say.

2 weeks into my holidays and i haven't done anything exciting.
partly because i've been hiding in a hole.
i sleep so much, i dream of senseless things like my sister getting pregnant at 14. god.

OH YES, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERNS!
<3 YOU TIMES 22039482903482374092347209347230947

hellobojangles @ 2008-11-27T01:53:00

2008-11-26T17:55:27Z

FINALLY I CAN GO TO BED WITHOUT WONDERING
IF I'D WAKE UP IN TIME TO FINISH UP MY HALF-DONE ESSAY.

hellobojangles @ 2008-11-19T23:53:00

2008-11-19T17:56:01Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN PEI QI!!
hahaha.

hellobojangles @ 2008-11-18T22:28:00

2008-11-18T14:30:27Z

i just wonder,
do you ever,
think of me anymore?
do you?

hellobojangles @ 2008-11-14T01:39:00

2008-11-13T18:11:59Z

In 8 hours time i am expected to turn up for class. but, i really don't want to go.
I am never in school on fridays and the weird thing is, i never skipped class till this trimester.
I am turning into a monster.

14 days into November, where the hell did 2008 go?
I don't remember doing anything that exciting apart from Bangkok.
But, i think its safe to say that it has been a dramatic year.

7 more days till Pat's back in sunny Singapore.
37 days till Justine comes back.
40 days till Christmas.
2 months and 4 days till i turn 20 (!!!!!!!!!!)
Poo.

Don't you think its funny how we don't realise the importance of something until we've lost it?